I haven’t commented on much of these before, but I have to say that much of my motives and agenda has been based on fear and judgments. Having grown up at MBC so many people know my story, even if it’s not factual. I have very few quiet moments these days, but I have made an effort to do so when I can and what I have walked away with is this…Jesus loves ME…who I am and where I am at and for nothing less…I know that in my head but am still processing that in my heart.
While it is so much better since you have been here, I still am working towards being totally free on stage. In a perfect scenario, I could let loose and just let the Spirit lead and in a corporate worship sense that is my ultimate goal. I feel a lot of pressure from being “home-grown” and in the shadow of my brother. That certainly has little to do with him and is all about me…just how I feel.
I want to be free to worship regardless, and am working on it…something you said really struck home for me…I have never identified myself as a lead vocalist because I’ve always been told that my strength was in a backup capacity and that I was the “queen of harmonies”. But in a sense that has been my identity and in a way “my way to shine”! I don’t want to shine…unless it is in the direction of Him. I truly want to be a pathway to Him.
I want to learn how to choose my words more carefully to exemplify that and make it real and am frustrated that I don’t know how to. I don’t want to be part of an awesome performance on a Sunday morning. I want to be an avenue to a life-changing experience.
That’s my heart. Would love anything you have to suggest to help me get there.
Hey!
I haven’t commented on much of these before, but I have to say that much of my motives and agenda has been based on fear and judgments. Having grown up at MBC so many people know my story, even if it’s not factual. I have very few quiet moments these days, but I have made an effort to do so when I can and what I have walked away with is this…Jesus loves ME…who I am and where I am at and for nothing less…I know that in my head but am still processing that in my heart.
While it is so much better since you have been here, I still am working towards being totally free on stage. In a perfect scenario, I could let loose and just let the Spirit lead and in a corporate worship sense that is my ultimate goal. I feel a lot of pressure from being “home-grown” and in the shadow of my brother. That certainly has little to do with him and is all about me…just how I feel.
I want to be free to worship regardless, and am working on it…something you said really struck home for me…I have never identified myself as a lead vocalist because I’ve always been told that my strength was in a backup capacity and that I was the “queen of harmonies”. But in a sense that has been my identity and in a way “my way to shine”! I don’t want to shine…unless it is in the direction of Him. I truly want to be a pathway to Him.
I want to learn how to choose my words more carefully to exemplify that and make it real and am frustrated that I don’t know how to. I don’t want to be part of an awesome performance on a Sunday morning. I want to be an avenue to a life-changing experience.
That’s my heart. Would love anything you have to suggest to help me get there.
Kris